Don't hold your breath

I saw a meme on Facebook that said "someone out there is holding their breath waiting for you to fail. Make sure they suffocate. And at first I was shocked and appalled. But then I seriously started thinking about it. 

That person in my life has always felt like my sister. She's 5 years older than me and has always been that negative voice inside my head. The one that tells me I'm too fat, too short, too tall, too loud. Not good enough, not fast enough, not smart enough. She swears she's my cheerleader, but I feel more like she's a heckler. 

Lately I have been thinking about giving up on my business completely. 2019 was amazing,  but 2020 ground me to a haul and I feel like I'm starting all over AGAIN. And what's the point? 

But then I saw this meme. And I got to thinking about my breath holder. She has started and failed multiple businesses. While I have dragged along 1. She has lost tens of thousands plus in her businesses. While I have thousands of dollars of materials waiting to become inventory. Should I give up and let her say "See, she can't do it either." Or should I keep going and keep working towards success and let her turn blue?