discouraged

I'm having a hard time today. It's been really hard to keep my business going while I'm not getting sales. I see all these other people thriving with their China made items because they have great marketing. Because they have TIME to work on marketing since they're not MAKING anything they sell.

On top of that we were supposed to get away for the first time in 2 years. A weekend with no kids, no needy father in law constantly up our asses making demands. Just us, alone. He even got the cabin we stayed at when he proposed all those years ago! But the only people willing to watch this many kids AND that we actually trust to watch them have covid, so they had to cancel. So no weekend away. No break. No chance to BREATHE. I have been dragging myself along, promising myself we just had to make it to this weekend. Everything is fine, just keep moving, you get a break soon. And now I don't. I'm so tired. I'm tired of trying so hard all the time to barely move at all. I'm so tired of having to go and go and go with no respite. I just want to sleep and never wake up, because what's the point?