needs

I am a mother. And a wife. This means I have people I am responsible for caring for. And don't try the whole "your husband can help" shit. He doesn't really. I care for 90% of his needs, yes, grudgingly, and 90+% of the children's needs. Until recently I was taking care of his father's needs too. 

But no one takes care of MY needs. Not even me, most days. 

So when I am so worn down I finally admit to 2 needs I have that are unmet, and I finally make myself vulnerable to have them met, I end up being ghosted by my spouse. My "partner"

Who wants me to run everything past him, apparently. But who never listens when I tell him what I am planning to do. So when I do it, he's surprised and even upset. I really don't get it. 

But here I am. Alone. Needs unmet. Here is hoping I can fall asleep and my neck and back just relax on their own. That the tense muscles don't make my arms fall asleep so often I can't stay asleep. Again. But whatever. Who cares.